Day 17

Done!

Pot is still at $50.

At the moment I'm finding this pretty hard to concentrate on. It maybe due
to the face that I'm doing my 30mins just before bed when I'm too
exhausted.

But I would have to say that I am refining this practice quote a lot in
how I need what I need to focus on. Not bad for my first time.

Day 16

Done

Pot = $50

Overall I'm feeling more confident.

Day 15

Done!

Pot = $50

Finding it hard to keep my concentration on this now. My image evolves as
I keep replaying the same scene. I've seen the power that this has and
also want to use it to work on other powerful images. Can't wait to try
the next phase out.

Day 14

Done!

Pot = $50

Spent Sunday night watching the sunset across the horizon. Absolutely
beautiful. Plan to get a nice two seater lounge for the balcony so that I
can enjoy it the view with a special someone.

Day 13 & Salsa Party

Partially done!
Tonight I only spent about 10-15 mins going through my visual image practice. I was running out of time before having to go to my salsa xmas party tonight. So I guess I'll have to leave this up to a peer's decision on whether I completed this or not. Part of my image is a hall filled with people talking and waiting for the music to begin. I see myself walking up to people I don't and finding out who they are. Essentially my salsa xmas party. Tonight was my image makeover in real life. How did I go? I smashed it. I spent most of the night going around talking to so many different people. People I knew, students from class, and complete strangers. It was a great night. My target was there. I did not feel any nerves or anxious feelings before or while I was talking to her. In fact I felt courageous. In fact most of the night I would see a group of girls and in 3 seconds I was of talking with them. Didn't get a chance to use any game material but I did use heaps of DW observation, with kino on the upper arm and shoulder, which is getting easier and easier to do. I found out a lot more about her. But as a mental note, I need to develop and apply specific skills to help me build up attraction. As far as the impact that my image practice is achieving, it is amazing. I was confident. Didn't care what people thought of me. I looked people in the eye as I listened. And most importantly I didn't find myself in the situation where I had nothing to say. One of my fears in this game. At this moment I really want to change the image I've been practicing to one where I approach complete strangers. But I think its important to finish this one off. Already its had a huge impact. I feel ready to get back out into some night game and create my new self image. (Because its easy to do!) N.B. I watched Don Juan DeMarco today before heading out. This movie is awesome. Talk about creating a strong enigmatic frame. Through the night I keep saying to myself, "I'm am Don Juan DeMarco... the greatest lover the world has ever seen!" There are some empowerment in these words.

Day 12

Done! Pot = $50 Caught up with my best mate tonight. Been ignoring him a little so wanted to put in the effort of hanging with him. Got a little bit too drunk. But the best thing was that all week I had been dieing for a game of chess and out of nowhere he grabs the board and says lets play!? Just another sign for that the world will provide you with all you need.

Day 11

Done! Pot = $50 Headed out to a salsa venue after class. There were some of my students down here so I made the effort to chat with them. It felt good. My usual social anxiety was not there and I managed to apply some of DW observation while in set.

Day 10

Done!

Pot = $50

Tonight is my last dress rehearsal. For the next 11 days I am going to
play this new image over and over.

I'm not sure yet but I think this exercise is making a difference. Tonight
I saw people from my classes and went over to have a chat. Not something I
usually make a point of doing. Part of my image for this exercise is
feeling that genuine desire to get to know someone. And its there I think.
I had no nervous energy like I normally do.

As I mentioned yesterday that I already have another image to try working
on. This involves approaching people during the day. Would love to do that
now, but I'm going to stick to this image first and see what effect it has.

I wish I had more energy and time. So much to do!

Day 9

Done!

Pot = $50

So tonight and tomorrow night I have to get the image that I want, to be
crystal clear. Already I have an idea of how I would like to work on my
next image. But I'll have to wait until I finish this one.

Day 8

Done!

Pot is still only $50

Day 7

Done!

Pot = $50

Only another 3 more days to refine my image. Managing to get it clearer and clearer.

Spent most of today working on my application and setting up my spare PC. I felt like I should of gotten out of the house but I promised myself that I would do these before the weekend was thru. Plus it was way too hot to do something energetic. Edit: I finally watched the first 2 Godfather movies. I know, I know... I should of watched these sooner. But at least I have now.

Day 6

Done!

Pot = $50

Not as good as yesterday. But still managed to get the image a lot clearer
in my mind.

Went to a salsa xmas party. Lots of people around. Tried talking to a few
people but the music was so loud. However, my frame and general interest
was better.

N.B. Have to work on my flirting a little bit. Would like to refine it. So
that I can flirt with finesse. Goal is to be very subtle and playful.
Almost complimentary in a cheeky way.

Day 5

Done!

Pot = $50

Tonight I did my 30mins before going to bed. What I found helped was standing up near the end of the visualisation. Putting my body in the same physical position as my image. I could feel it having an impact. ;P

Day 4 - Make Over

Failed. So that's the first $50 to go into the pot.

My plan for tonight was to teach and then head home so I could do my
30mins. But I had a call from a female friend asking me to head down to a
salsa club. Had a top night dancing away (and showing off). When I got
home it was 12.20am. I tried to do my 30mins but only managed 5min before
I had to drag myself to bed.

Day 3 - Make over

Done.

What an exciting day. Had my car towed. Panicked when I could not find it.
Luckily they moved it around the corner.

So my plan of engaging my students last night before class didn't happen.
To focused on finding out what happened to my car.

Day 2 - Make Over

Done!

Took the opportunity to sit down during lunch with a girl from work.

Day 1 - Make-Over

Achieved.

Addition: Made 2 attempts to genuinely connect with people I came in
contact with while on a errand. 1 was receptive. 1 wasn't.

21 Day Image Make-Over

Today is the start of my 21 day image make-over.

I don't like my self image. The one that says I am not the type of person who can be comfortable in walking up to a girl and starting a conversation. "I am shy". "I'm not social". "They won't like me". "I'm boring". And the same image that blindly cripples me with knots in my stomach when I decide I'm going to push past my fear and walk over. Because I'm afraid of what people think of me.

So I want to change that image. Create a new image and make it real.

Its going to say: "I walk confidently among people. I do not fear walking up to anyone and starting a conversation. In fact I enjoy doing it. I am a interesting and entertaining man that people who are open, are receptive to. No matter who I talk to I can find common ground. I don't care what people think of me."

So for the next 21 days I am going to spend 30 mins each day visualising my new image. The first 10 days I am going to develop this "theatre" image. Building up the scenerio mentally to a flawless level. Then for the rest of the 11 days I'm going to replay this new image so that I become that image.

In fact, because I'm dedicated to achieving it I am going to give away $50 for each day I miss in the first 10 days and $100 for each day in the last 11 days. Let's be honest here: I'm a procrastinator! I need leverage and motivation. I haven't decided how I'm going to give away the money but that's could be almost $1000 if I don't stay motivated.

No execuses. Even if I'm sick!

How will I know that I have achieved this new image?

I think I can measure it by my ability to walk up to any stranger and strike up a conversation. If I can walk up to anyone effortlessly and converse for more than 5 mins, I'll say I've done it.

[Idea]: as an experiment after the 16th Dec I will ask a friend to point to a stranger. Then I'll will see if I can walk over and talk to them. If I can, it will be another indicator I have been sucessful.

Hello world

Hello world! This blog is going to be my journal. In it will contain all of my adventures, blood, stain and tears on the road to becoming my best self. Be good Cas